Poetry time - only because my heart is heavy and this needed to come out....

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Stirred and tossed, like waves you sent me

Even still a gentle fire below my feet

The pain is sharp, yet it forces me to move

I’ll wake from this sleep

Our touch will never meet.



Beauty so deep – you say that it’s so in me.

That comparison is slim

Yet in my head a ruddy reflection rots

And my once brilliant eyes fall dim

Into sadness

Into longing

Into foolishness I dare not speak

Only suffering comforts the weak.



Peel back this flesh

Toss it aside

I’ve never felt as dogfaced as I do tonight

Your praises, your hand-spin fawning

Is a bitter pill

And it always will.



Starving and broken, I carelessly reached

One look, one word would arrest

The only heart deeming you above the rest

How my strength could break like glass

This breakdown will soon pass



Words that had restored me

Serve only now to remind me

Of paper-thin hopes only I possessed

Do not agonize

Do not fear

It’s my last request to let slip one more tear



How do you deny what takes rest with your soul?

Walking lost

Lost with you

Brings me home and takes its toll

I’ll work to discover all I abhor

To match the depth of everything I adore

In you.



© April S. 10/28/05